Formal ways to describe knowledge

You left for good this time.
I was trying to help you get clean
and you were doing a good job.
you are still clean, well maybe not now?
I just cant be your everything, even you said it.
Its too much on me , I told you to leave.
you told me you loved me and kissed my face good bye.
I packed everything and said this was done, It has been done for awhile.
You said forever, I said always.
You said never again, I said this is done.
I have not cried yet.
I most likely wont for a few days.
It will only hit me when I am low and lonely.
I do love you.you love me.
That will change later on in life, when I will grow tired of this illness.
I did not invite you here to be in a relationship.
I invited you because it was a safe clean place.
You got clean.
You stole my shit.
You took my money.

You said you were going back to heroin.
I said I knew you would all along.
You act as if I don't know when your promises are empty.
I just know that its been her all along.
She is the only thing who eases your pain.

I took so much time getting over you before,
now its going to be painful,
only because I let you in to get clean.
You grew closer to me in that time.
I feel like we just broke up,
when we have not been together in so long.

I should have never let you in again