Its 2010?

everything is moving fast.
what happened to slow and easy?
calm and steady?

Moving into this big apartment is no help.
I like the location, ten minutes out of the city.
I thought I would like the space, 985 square feet?
It's too much space.
I feel like I need a smaller space, more closed in.
A small comfort. Walls closer in to my flesh.

She is often changing her mind about things, always back and forth.
She is not going to learn to grow up like she had planned.
She is too selfish, A child in a woman's body.
She wants love without the sex, something that feels magic.
A child does not need sex, They need compassion and understanding.
She needs fairy tales and make believe. Pirates and monsters.
You people have to remember her mind is stuck at the age of 8.
She needs love and laughter. She needs to play and cry.
She just needs to be held and told that everything is going to be alright,
Before her mind will grow.

Or maybe she needs to just suck it up, hold it in, and grow up.
Maybe she needs someone to tell her mermaids are not real, even though she will never believe that.

she needs soft and gentle yet honest and real.
Does that exist, without a hidden temper?

For now, she is just going to focus on laughing.
Maybe one day the world and god will hand her what she has needed.
She needs to understand that she is not ready for this gift, at least right now.
So her main focus is laughing and showing passion.

understanding ones heart, might be a delightful thing.