pushing everyone away

there is no point in me talking to most people anymore.
I allow myself to get to close and get stomped on.
I allow myself to give everything for nothing.

I just want people in my life, who actually want to be here.

Brigid,
Thank you for wanting me around.
Thank you for drinking whiskey and allowing me to cry.
Thank you for being pretty much the best girlfriend i have had in awhile.
Thank you for napping with me and always giving me the best hugs and kisses:)


Jesse Ditson,
I'm happy you took me to sushi Saturday.
I'm happy you talk to me everyday, even though i am mostly neurotic.
I'm happy you are becoming a good friend.
I'm sad you live in Portland.
I kind of want you to stick around because you make me laugh and smile and this makes me Selfish.