My body is Falling apart.

Yesterday was the first day i was in a swimming suit in public.

I see a lot of things that need to be fixed about my body.
so Amanda and i are going on diets?
or working out more?

I was getting better. I have been at the point where i eat whatever, whenever i want.
thats probably why i don't really want people to look at me.

so I am going back to what i was doing, it makes me happy.
little to nothing:) just salads, soups, veggie sushi, fruit and vegetables.
500 calories a day, and minute i spend eating I will work out double that amount.
I feel really good about this.

Clementine aka Klem ate his first lemon custard yesterday:)
he is getting so fat and cute.
when we found him in the road he was nothing but bones.
Now that he is being fed tuna and kitten meow mix 2-3 times a day, he is a little fatty.


This is when i feel free.
thats why I am always spinning.



yesterday wasn't too bad after i hid my body.
for some reason food and seeing my body makes me nervous and very anxious .